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What do you have, what do you need and what do you want?
Submitted by Miss Scotch.

• I have a large house and a wonderful husband (who just beat me in the lunchtime spades game and has been continuously rubbing it in); three beautiful children and a decent job.
• I need to get my car checked out I think there is a problem with it. I need to redo the garage roof and get the damages caused by the neighboring demolition disaster corrected.
• I want a raise! I want a new car, and I want to have a blast tonight with my bestest friend in the whole wide world!

What decision changed the course of your life? 
Submitted by Ally.

I would have to say that the biggest life changing decision I made was when I joined the Army. I was desperate to ensure that my son had a roof over his head and medical insurance. The Army helped me to find strength I did not know I had: I was able to leave my husband (the first one) who was physically abusive. I stood up to him, just to find out he was the coward, although I still felt very threatened by him I felt good about myself. While in the Army I met my my husband (the current one) and conceived my middle son. The Army was certainly the biggest, hardest and most rewarding decision I made. Not to mention, it is the entire reason why I have the awesome job I have today!!

What does your name mean and why did your parents choose it for you? 
Submitted by mommy2two.

The possible meanings of my name are: white/dazzling/holy; white phantom/shadow; or white day  I happen to know that my dad fell in love with my name when he saw a movie. Pretty Cool huh! Nothing like being named after a movie character!

Things have been going along just like usual as of late. Nothing exciting to report really. School is getting hectic, my sister has been admitted to a mental institution for the next seven days (see she really is psycho) and the hubby is out of town until tomorrow. I got to go to Erie last week where I proceeded to get extremely wasted at the hotel bar for no good reason other than there was nothing else to do. I did get to the mall there, and thankfully it had decent stores. You have to remember that I currently live in Podunkville, as I like to call it, which has the worst mall ever - Kmart is the major store and the most expensive store there is the Gap. My sister-in-law had never even herd of Abercrombie or Express (how sheltered is that). The only store in our town is a Dollar General so to find a mall that had Abercrombie and American Eagle was intensly exciting for me. New jeans, YAY!!! I am such a denim freak. I was disappointed that none of the carried Luckies.

Whatever the case back to the real reason I started this blog....Him. This is the guy I cannot seem to get over. I had not seen him in 11 years or heard from him in 8 bt I found him. I was looking, and that was so wrong of me. I found him on myspace. I knew it was him the second I saw his eyes. He's gained some weight, moved back to his hometown, and seems to have gotten into drugs. The reason why we broke up to begin with. Whatever the reason I have never forgotten him. I can't get him out of my head. So I messaged him. I should have left well enough alone. I am content with my life. No worries, good job, great husband, three beautiful kids, but I was curious what happened to him.

So he sent me his number and I called. I shouldn't have, he sounds the same. We talked about old times, about what brought us to where we are today. He asked if I was happy - I said I was content. To him content is not happy. I told him that was not an invitation. So the subject changed. I can't help but wonder the what if, but I know I will stay where I am at, content with my life. What really is happy anyway? Mu husband is sexy, sex is good when we have it, my heart swells when he plays with the kids. We live in a nice house, drive nice cars, make good money, the bills get paid with room to spare. Our families are wonderfull, What else could I want? The only thing lacking is I feel that I fall third on his list, where he is my number one. Small price to pay, right?

I know it has been a while since I have had time to blog, and really I don't have time to right now but I will anyhow. So this is how it goes: Yesterday I got asked to lunch by one of the military maintenance guys. I thought nothing of it, and since my husband was on AT and we could not eat lunch together I said yes. I guess that was my first mistake. Lunch went well, and he was quite the gentleman, opening doors and paying for lunch. TODAY I hear from a mutual friend that the dude said last night at the bar "I think I have got a shot with her"! OMG the nerve of this guy. Does every man that pays for a womans lunch think that he is going to get laid? WTF?! That is just outrageous. HELLO I am married, I talked about my husband and work the whole time. Get a freaking clue -- no chance here.

Yep thats right, I have been so busy with work drama and school I have had no time to blog anything. Talk about time management issues! I have started block two with school, and I have the grade back for one of my first two classes - a perfect score. That just proves how completely unchallenged I was. The essay for COM will be posted shortly, then I might copy it into here....Maybe....My daddy is coming up tomorrow and I think I just might get a few days off to go fishing. Maybe I can slide some me time in there (between school of course) So thats all you are getting from me!

I like to play and joke around, but when has joking crossed the line?

Today I was displaced from my office so that the bossman could do interviews. I set up a makeshift work area in the mechanics office. Mostly I was working on turn-ins but there was some orders that I needed to complete as well. Brad came in and asked me if I could call the infamous Roger and see if they could just uses a generic form for all of the TI orders necessary before handoff. I already knew the answer: No. I would have done it just to appease him though. I would have gotten the bitch session from the infamous one on how that is the wrong way, how it impacts warranty, how it is my job to insure that everything the mechanics give me is correct. However, before I called I explained it to Brad. He was no to happy, and of course voiced it. Whatever. Then it starts. Travis starts harassing me, saying that I don't do my job, that I don't want to do my job, that I don't want to help them out. Fuming I continued to work in silence. Cris chimes in a few cutdowns -- they ask if I was ignoring them: Why, yes I am ignoring all of them! So are you gonna call Roger? HELL NO, I am not going to call roger and you can do one page PER part, it is not like it makes my job any easier why am I going to make your job any easier?! Livid pissed -- And Travis continues, Thanks Chris, you pissed her off now, it is just because she doesn't want to do her job... I was on the verge of loosing my mind in there --- Yes I told the Bossman, he gave them an earful, now I am dubbed the whiny girl who tattles. Whatever! I am the ONLY girl here, thank you and I think their office reaks, and I would prefer to just do my job, in my own space, without thir cutdowns, their jokes - and YES this was all unpravolked in my book!

Just some random thoughts for the day, school is going well, but I am not so very motivated at work. I think my good friend here hates my guts now, but I guess I won't bust him out on it. I will get over it eventually - whatever the case I have to pay some outrageous thing called taxes, yuck. I have to work on some stuff for school. The hubby is #1 in the state for promotion to E6 in his MOS, which is beyond excellent. Sandy's coming up for a visit - which is great! Excited, I am, I am! My thesis turned out great with major kudos from my instructor. Off to outlining phase. Lil' Sis got suspended from school - serves her stupid ass right - oh and I am gonna laugh when Daddy calls the cops to evict her! Another story though. Mostly things are going well though, just bored waiting on the boss so I can leave.....

It is so funny how a song can bring back such a rush of memories from the past. Feelings, smells, even an exact moment in time come flooding back in an overwhelming rush. When I heard the song everything little thing came back to me as if it was yesterday. The little black car, the smell of his cologne, his hand in mine. And I missed him. After the initial storm of that memory passed, the little things came back to me: Romeo and Juliet, the mall, work, the teddy bear, even his old phone number. How timid he was in front of my parents -- I sometimes wonder where he is, is he alive, does he have the family he always wanted...then the song's over, and poof out of fantasy land and back to the harsh reality. I order my meal from Wendy's and back to work, to the real world.

You know, one of THOSE days. I actually have a day off, and all in all more than I expected has gotten accomplished. The Laundry room is now officially on the second floor! Sound exciting right? Not really. What used to be known as the eventual laundry room is now the laundry room: The ceiling tiles still are not in place. The wall, if you can call it that, has no drywall, the wires are hanging all over the place...But the washer and dryer function! The dishes still are not done, the test load of laundry is still in the washer, Lily dumped glue all over the table, Madison got her shirt so covered with it - I was surprised she wasn't stuck to the table (thank God it was only Elmer's school glue)! The boys were beating up on each other; oh what a wonderful day! I have completed my task of todays school work so that is a bonus....I haven't got a clue whats for dinner, anyone up for the Wal-mart special rotisserie chicken! If you said (or even thought) that sounds good, how about you bring it right over, because I do not feel like driving either...The hubby is passed out on the couch from all of his physical exertion - dragging those two monstrous appliances up the stairs with the help of his brother (who is probably passed out on his own couch right about now). Lily is snoring right along with her daddy, must be from the glue! The boys are quiet too, looks like prime nap time to me! Too bad I have so much thats unfinished....